Thursday, October 18, 2001

If you have any good cheese lying around get it out because here comes some whine. I can’t get enough sleep I have no idea why but I’ve reached that point where your so tired that you just lay in bed thinking about how much your not sleeping. I think its starting to dull my wit. In the past six days I have slept a total of twelve hours. The largest continuous block was five. I know this is unhealthy but I don’t really have much say in the matter. My brain has decided to ramp up my anxiety level just in time for work to require more hours than normal. I’m thinking about experimenting with binging and purging to see just how much my body can take. I need to sleep but I still find myself on this computer at night because it completely relaxes me. As I finish my thirty-seventh year on this planet I keep wondering when my life will make more sense. This could be a part of my sleep problem because I am currently without a point. Add the fact that someone has place a bad ju-ju on the house causing absolutely everything to break down and you’ve got one wound up mental patient. I’m afraid to walk in the door because I haven’t fixed the first ten things that have broken let alone whatever has gone down in my absence. I’m Tired. Shut up Bancini! 12:00:00 AM    says you