I suppose I can blog since no one reads this anymore :)
I had a long talk with a friend of mine last night. We talked about what we were doing with our lives right now and where we wanted to take them. It was a really great time for that part alone. But the part that came after was even better. We talked about a couple of the people we know meeting up again in 15 years to see how life has been. We talked about all of us being successful in our respective fields of business and interest and how good it all could be. We imagined pulling up in our flashy cars that our lives afforded us and talking about everything we've accomplished so far and then making plans for what we wanted to do next. We talked about contracts with big name recording artists and multi-million dollar real estate deals and business ventures and what the view from the top would be like.
Then to bring it down to a more sobering level we talked about doing it at a place we spent a lot of time at over the last couple years. A place where until last year all we talked about was how much we hated our lives and how little there was that we could do. We'd sit for hours, day after day whinning to ourselves that life was unfair and that there was no chance for people like us. We riled against the system and our parents and the world looking for excuses to use as to why we were so pathetic. All the while it was the search for excuses that made us that way. It took a few of us the span of 2 years to figure it all out and get back on solid ground. For some of us it took jobs, for others school. I think at least with the two of us present we have reached a plateu in our lives where we are comfortable with who we are and what it all means. We're not scrambling for the cover of excuses anymore to hide our own flaws. We're slowly putting one foot in front of the other to walk towards the future we now can know is possible. We're ready to start working for a future where everything we want is possible and the only thing stopping us is our failure to dream it. We've left a lot of people behind in these two years. Some of them chose to stay behind because it was too much effort to crawl out of the cave they hid in. Others moved a little bit to a level they think will satisfy them to live at. All I know is that I'm feeling more confident in myself and the world now than I ever have before and I'm ready to take the next step. The feeling in the car last night was almost magical and as we were heading back home we were both silent while our heads exploded with the possibilities that are laid out before us, the only question left is which one sounds like a fun start and where do I sign.
1:28:51 PM 
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