Hope
The weight of doom that's sat on the tech sector could suck the joy out of almost anyone. And if your outside interests were, say, world affairs, the general pessimism that springs from political conditions in the world and the suffering of so many because of the apparent stupidity, greed and intractability of a few sure wouldn't help your mood.
The only answer, then, to that age old question, is to fight and hope; to take all there is that weighs down on you and turn it upside down. Battle; fight; live. For in battle, there is always a chance of victory; to give up hope is to surrender life.
But to battle doesn't mean to lash out randomly; it means overcoming adversity and finding new ways to move forward, new battlefields to fight on. To use a financial metaphor, that means diversifying the psychic portfolio; finding personal balance (through family, friends, and other interests) to strengthen your position, and to provide positions to fall back on when things on one front turn for the worse.
[Sean Gallagher: the dot.communist]
I haven't posted anything in quite a while now. I've been feeling pretty stressed out at work and at home. Lots going on and lots to stress about. When you're depressed, you don't feel like doing much of anything. Sooooo hard.....
The quote above was written in response to Gene Kan's apparent suicide. Gene was the progenitor of Gnutella. A very smart person by any measure. Smartness does not equate to happiness though. And I would say that true smartness can sometimes bring some very depressing thoughts. Difficult questions about life, God, pain, justice. Sooooo hard.....
Hope is what is most absent during the dark days. And hope eludes us. Hoping... hoping... despairing... despairing.
And when hope finally comes, whether through prayer, good meds, good therapy, or all of the above, a way out is found.
I hope that Gene found peace. Please don't find peace in the same way. Hold on and reach out.
10:03:31 PM 
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