Permanent link to this day's archive Thursday, December 18, 2003

THOUGHT:  The theologian “is accountable as a citizen of the world to the wider human community with its questions, concerns and ways of thinking…[and] has…a public accountability to address issues of general human concern” (Hart, Faith Thinking, p.104).

WORD: "You are the salt of the earth; but if salt has lost its taste, how can its saltimess be restored? It is no longer good for anything, but is thrown out and trampled under foot. You are the light of the world. A city built on a hill cannot be hid. No one after lighting a lamp puts it under the bushel basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5: 13-16 NRSV)

DEED: It is not like me, Lord, to think of myself as “a citizen of the world.” I feel like an alien and stranger (1 Peter 2:11)…no, I thrive on my identity as an alien…how am I accountable for the terrible things they are doing to their world, right?

Oh, Father, forgive me. I want to be perceived as a caring person, yet I often choose to care only when the public applauds, and find caring in secret arduous…unrewarding, cumbersome. I blog to find the public accountability that I desperately crave, all the while scheming to be relieved of its burden. Sometimes my longings for the eschaton – that great getting’ up mornin’… that ultimate consummation – are so intense I can barely breathe, let alone pray. I jealously gaze at Bernini’s marble image of my sister, Teresa...ethereal and other-worldly, not concrete and ugly-worldly.

            What kind of a theologian can I become? I, who barely gives a damn about my neighborhood, never mind my world. Oh, God, how can you use me?

What are the choices in obedience but to obey or not?  What is this constant calling that daily breaks my heart and my will?

 


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