I've been doing a lot of introspection today. Stuff happens, makes you think.
Before I start, let me say I'm not looking for pity. So don't go there.
There are days that I worry about people discovering what a louse I am and losing what respect they had for me. Then sometimes I think I wish everybody knew what I louse I am so I could find out who my real friends are and what redeeming qualities I actually have that keep them around. Or maybe it's just love that keeps real friends around.
Well, anyway, I told my wife the other day that if I ever wrote a book, it would list her in the dedications for "loving me anyway." Eccentricities, goofiness, screw-ups, balding, overweight, inconsistency, poor judgment, etc., blah, blah, blah. I have to end the list here, because I still (for now) have a reputation to protect. I can't give away all of my dirty secrets at once, you know.
God loves us anyway. That's what grace is about, I suppose.
Prayer: God keep me from hurting you intentionally. Keep me from giving in to the pull of my flaws. Help me to see what I can do for you, even after my failures. Help me work with Take what's left to do what you have planned for me.