I introspect far more than most people. And I mostly don't cope so well with what I see. Living with myself, with being me, is hard, sometimes too hard. It's taken a lot of years to be able to say, "Yeah, I'm an OK person." And it's not as if I haven't had the most wonderful support from friends and family. This is my private struggle. Some days I feel good, today I feel a little the other way. It's almost balanced but tipping slightly towards the precipice. Most times now I can drag it back fairly quickly and easily, and that's how it'll be today I think. So, I'm OK. But I do wish sometimes I knew how to stride confidently out into the world, drawing quiet power and comfort from the knowledge of being A Good and Happy Man.
8:29:40 AM 
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