i like to imagine that all dreams require miracles in order to come true, otherwise they wouldn't be dreams, we would just do them.

so if both dreams and fantasies require miracles, what is the difference?

sometimes we get to lead a dream life, and sometimes we get to lead a fantasy life. i imagine that living a dream life would be good, while living a fantasy life would be bad. why is that?

a dream is the hopes of your soul projected into the world, and fantasy is the hopes of the world projected into your soul.

yeah, that's it. somehow in the the thing i call dream, i become more of what i was made to be.

inside me, dream and fantasy vie for dominance. both are appealing, both demand my attention. i'd love to say that they are indistinguishable, and that i am helpless in the face of forces i can't control, but those thoughts freeze my fingers and refuse to be typed.

what is true and will be typed is that i choose fantasy, which will destroy me.
11:31:56 PM    comment []

he mentioned of the use of the word "know" in the bible, how it is also used to describe sexual intimacy.

for some reason i heard this completely differently today than i ever have before. what then does it mean to know god? do the dynamics of sexual relationships apply to my attempt to know god?

• do i have to romance him instead of simply demanding knowledge?
• what role does mutual trust play in "knowing?"
• is there jealousy if i get knowledge from somewhere else?
• how much better is this knowing if i live in close relationship at all times, instead of only drawing close when i want knowledge?

12:05:43 AM    comment []