I've kind of had a sunrise experience in my soul in the last 24 hours or so, so I wanted the blog to shine a little bit too.
6:44:35 AM    comment []

Here we go.

Reading Real Live Preacher, I came to the conclusion of his post:

Okay, as long as I'm asking, could I get a letter officially confirming the existence of the God that I've given my whole life to following? Could that letter also tell me exactly where God is located?

...

I'm trying not to ask for too much.

And then in God's little book of stories there is this one about the Hebrews. God sends plagues, parts the Red Sea, sends food from heaven, follows them around in a cloud... You'd think that would be enough to validate God's claim to be who He says he is, yet it wasn't enough for the Hebrews. They were barely out of the Red Sea and the were melting down their gold to make a statue they could worship. Despite God dropping in over and over again, as soon as He was out of their sight, they forgot Him.

Maybe wishing for the note is really an attempt to shift the responsibility for faith from me to God. It's not my problem I struggle with faith, it is God's fault he hasn't been powerful enough to defeat my skepticism.

Sometimes I think the only purpose of the Old Testament is to remind us that even if God were to rain gold and fire upon us, we'd still be bowing to Madison Avenue and Hollywood (or whatever your personal idols might be).

How horrible it would be to get the note from God, and then discover that I still struggled with doubt, and I had wasted a wish.

So I've been wondering, what I am really wishing for when I wish for the note?

[ I also posted this to the comment section of the Preacher's blog, but it seemed like it belonged here on the Lemon too. ]
6:25:59 AM    comment []