I woke up this morning and realized that I really miss having someone to wake up with. I miss "d", I miss talking to him, I miss having his arms wrapped around me and I know that he isn't ready for a relationship but I do miss seeing him every once in awhile. I'm too busy with work to have much time for anyone else besides me and the cats...but still every once in awhile its nice to wake up next to someone, feel his body next to mine...and I guess at some point I'd like to have that every day. "d" if you read this, no pressure...I'm totally ok with what we have.....I just miss you.
The other day I realized that I'm not that old...sometimes I feel really old but I'm not. I wonder if its the weigh of my job or too many things going on it my life that makes me feel old. I've got to remember I'm only in my 30s and I still need to be young. One of my co-worker's wife is 30 and I saw her as being really young...but then I realized after talking to her lately...I'm only a few years older than her...
On that note....the new president at my job..told me I need to stop being a perfectionist...either he really just doesn't know me or he really doesn't know me...I swear...I am not a perfectionist...never will be, never want to be, never ever was...trust me, ask my mom about this one..and really would a perfectionist put a sign up that says...CAUTION, Clutter Test in Progress...I don't think so!!
The IT guy at work is history..finally took care of that..also taking care of the network issues..
The bathroom...everyone who has been following the saga, wants to hear the end, etc...I'm actually finishing it this weekend.. I finished painting everything that needs to be painted taupe. I got the stencil for the cabinets. I have to touch up the chocolate color and then put everything back together and then I'll finish the story.
ok..even update for this week/last week...gotta get some sleep...been a really long time since I've stayed up this late...or feels like a long time.. :)
3:41:10 AM 
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