lets see if this works, thought I'd add a currently reading/currently listening to list via a blogroll, that's kind of cool, yep I've been so busy with other things completely forgot about some of the cool radio features although it always seems to take me a few tries to get it just right...forgot how to get a blogroll to single space..hmmm

so blogroll cool idea but I didn't want to mess around with the CSS codes tonight, so lets try a table inside a table instead with basic black font - cool that looks much better.

a little template update..adding more color and design..ick pink does not work..lets try chocolate....like it better, switched around colors..maybe this will add some lightness..

what do you think? too dark? just right? any thoughts out there?

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I finally remembered what I logged in yesterday to blog about...

When I'm really like someone, I get nervous and start to talk alot about me - not all together stupid things but some things that should really be left to after knowing me for a year or so. My guess is that I do that so I don't get hurt because if you know everything about me all at once  - its all there in the open, which is a stupid way to go about letting someone know who I really am, what my passions are, how I think because I'm actually pushing them away by letting it all out all at once. I need to remember to leave a little mystery, so someone I like can get to know me, the real me, the passionate, sexy me. And not force everything out now but to be natural and goes with the flow, let the magick happen.

The thing is I'm not like that with my clients - they see this really assertive, confident woman and I don't tell them my whole life story all in one burst and actually I don't tell them alot about me in general.

So why the hell do I do that with someone I'm attracted to? I think part of me is afraid of getting hurt so I just blurt it all out in one burst and if you still like me and still would like to know me more then you're ok. Now that I'm writing this out, it all makes sense. I need to stop it. I need to just be me, the sexy confident assertive woman that I am.

I met someone recently that I really like and he thinks that we're not a good fit for a relationship and I wonder if its because I said too much or did too much and he wants someone with a mystery to discover. And maybe he'll tell me why he doesn't think we're a good fit because I think that there is something more to learn about him and I really like him. And honestly I told him about my past which I probably shouldn't have - but I was nervous and really attracted to him. And I hope he gives me the chance to get to know the sexy confident assertive woman that I am today, not the past, but today.

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