Julie Wiggins: Free Writing

pondering

Sun, 07 Dec 2008 23:36:48 GMT

maybe I should just move my whole payperpost thing to my business blog, maybe that would make more sense, although I don't know that anyone actually reads that one..hmm pondering

ah, its out

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 08:25:58 GMT

i tried to post this last night but it didn't work, so its a repost.....i have nothing to talk about..so lets try a random free writing data dump for the night because I probably have alot swimming around in my head and don't even know it. Baby Kitty and Turtle seemed to have misplaced a mouse, they have been guarding the laundry door now for three days, but wouldn't you if you saw the chance to get away, run under the nearest thing that the cats couldn't get to. I would. I went out on a date the other night and I told him I probably wouldn't blog about him but damn I blog, its life and here it goes..I had a good time but I didn't get that vibe. We kissed and he said that he'd invite me back to his place but I couldn't since I needed to go home and feed the cats. I mean really I just wanted to go home and feed the cats, no vibe there whatsoever. I told him to call Saturday but honestly I'm praying for 2 things: rain and him not to call because if it rains we can't go hiking. He was a nice guy but I just didn't feel it. And I realized something else too, I don't particulary like skinny little guys. And then I think maybe i'm forever going to be alone, i swear by this point in my life you'd think i'd have met the right person that wants to be with me, WTF am i doing wrong anyways? I tried to hard, pushes them away. I do the opposite and let them do their own thing, nada. I just be me, nada. WTF? Ok, maybe that's not completely true. I was hit on by a very sexy man who happens to be one a client and two married, so maybe I am doing something right and in all honesty, I never had any idea about this guy except that he is hot. So I just need to find someone that likes me for me and can rock my world but where the hell is he? defintely not on match.com and not on nerve either for that matter. oh god, its out of my head, thank god. work..ah big subject, i think i might be burned out a little on accounting, yesterday i took the day off and did no work, actually i didn't do a whole lot yesterday except kinda of space out. It was so nice not to do anything. I think I need a vacation and to hire someone with a little more experience..so I checked out the average salary for an accounting clerk about 18/hour or 37K per year, that's not bad and its doable I think. I already pay my current employee 15/hr so if i get any more business and before my head explodes, I'm going to need to hire another body. working out..somehow that got pushed aside and I was doing really good on my diet and then bam, i wanted something gooey and fatting and good. so next week, back to the gym. You think i'd have some motivation, my trainer is sexy. my time management skills suck, i need to figure out how to get up earlier in the morning but for some reason right now at midnight, I'm wide awake, i get that second wind and I'm good to go til 3am which screws me up cuz i need 8 hours of sleep everynight and then a couple of hours to get going in the morning and then i'm not out the door before 1pm everyday. Actually i'm tired right now, so bed soon. so what else is rambling in my head - i've been avoiding doing this bank recs for 2 months now, i know i need to do them but its all i ever do anymore, bank recs one client, next client, next client and its a forver endless loop, yes I need a vacation and I wish i could wear sweats to work, don't you?

Saturday, I'm off on a treasure hunt for the old Bryon Hot Springs Hotel, anyone know any history on that? I love history and oh yes, I won't be home if he calls, I'll be out and about and getting out of the house for a day away from work, yeah!!

pink milk

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 04:10:22 GMT

so I bought the new green tea frappucino at Starbucks the other day and one of my clients asked me what was I drinking "its the new greeen tea frappucino". He asked how it tasted and it reminded me of pink milk, so thats what I told him. He had this look on his face, like what the hell was I talking about and I said again, "it reminds me of pink milk."

Hours later, many many moons later, it dawned on me, he had no idea what pink milk was. He had never had pink milk. And the quizzical looks around the room when I said, "you know, pink milk," leads me to believe they others had never had pink milk. That look that reminds one of they are thinking I'm crazy. But seriously, it reminded me of pink milk not green tea.

I was at a baby shower not so long ago for my sister and the topic some how came to how much my sister loves milk. And so, she turns to me and says, "you like milk too? right?" Oh, I love milk. I have at least 1-2 or more glasses per day. I almost prefer milk to soda these days and I always would rather have milk for dinner than anything else and that's what I told everyone. And again, that look of like you two are crazy, like maybe we were from another planet.

As I was relaying the story to my mom, she said it was because those girls never had pink milk when they were little.

I still love pink milk and one of my cats, miss princess ticklenose, loves pink milk. I wonder if my sister will give her kid pink milk and we can continue the tradition of pink milk. And those crazy looks, maybe someday I'll explain myself, when I say. "it reminds me of pink milk."

Ancient Guardians

Mon, 09 May 2005 08:48:08 GMT

feathers of an ancient man
softly falling like rain upon the soul
our ancient guardians watch over us
leading, guiding, holding our hands down the winding path of life
helping us find our inner peace, our inner balance
giddy, skipping stones, silently feeling our hearts with pleasure
dancing with the tides
swaying with the wind
our ancient souls meet
once upon a time
in the wind, the water and the air
we were one
past lives merging like waterfalls pooling in the depths of our minds
slowly through the forest
of everyday life
forgotten yet still there guiding
showing us, shifting silently through our world, through our minds
into everyday grace
our ancient guardians watch over us

Inspired by the new age pianst, Kevin Kerns' Ancient Guardians

data dump 3-16-05

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 08:47:54 GMT

new business cards design - check. consulting agreement for new client - check, I can't believe I forgot this the other day, I guess I didn't think she was going to hire my company or maybe I was just hoping she wouldn't. where does one find a copy of oneself? I wonder should I post an ad on craigslist or check the local colleges? any thoughts on this one?

opened the bills - check. enter info into QB - working on it. coyote gulch design - yeah I have another design idea not posted yet but in progress, I like this one better. grumpy girl - didn't forget about you..send the heading. SYN client - so cool, he's postponed the migration another month or so, thank god.

mouse is driving me nuts. is this blog boring? anyone still reading it? sleepy..so sleepy

personal trainer - got mad at me today, I was so sick when I woke up, didn't make it to the gym today - I will go tommorrow and Friday and Sunday to make up for the missed days. I lost 8 lbs - yeah, only 2 more to go and I'll be under 200 and then only 40 more to go after that and I'll hit my goal weight!!!

I need a date. I need a social life and I want playtime back in my life - oh yea, I started my own business, no time for that, but I still want it. Maybe I'll meet someone at the St. Patrick Event at Dogzilla tomorrow night - all you SF Bloggers, I know you're out there...come to the live music from 6-8 at Dogzilla..come on, everyone loves hot dogs..come on, you know you do

must go work..before I sleep..

getting all the thoughts out of my head

Thu, 30 Sep 2004 06:49:31 GMT

usually i relax in the shower, sort through my day, figure out solutions to my problems but tonight i'm still in that state of a millions things to do, running a business is hard work, I'm not particulary organized when I go to a client and sell myself which is probably not a good thing since i'm selling the idea that i can organize your books, your office, your projects, what i seriously need is a laptop so everything is there ready to go with examples and how things work but as I am once again very broke and maxed on all credit cards, the laptop needs to wait. I feel like i don't have anytime for myself anymore and what i truly need is a massage and some downtime to organized my thoughts...so free writing..getting everything out and maybe i'll sleep tonight..last night i dreamed i took care of something and woke up to find out, it was only a dream, here's what going through my head..any insights, feel free to comment

money, money, will i have enough to pay the bills, addendum for malcolm, will he be ok with the rate per hour, i don't think its extremely high, should i post my rates on my site, what exactly am i doing for malcolm, need to finish an email and get the consulting agreement to 3rd client with some examples, can't find the damn examples, somewhere in my computer, my carpel tunnel is killing me, wearing the brace now at home, feels like a truck ran over my back, website design for dogzilla, dogzilla walking across the page with blurbs on the menu, need to work on the grumpy girl design..haven't forgotten about her, just busy, need to work on my shimmeringenergy designs, need to pull some jpegs of my site designs to show other I can design sites, need to print the 2nd draft of the proposal for MLA - wording change, need to proof it again, need to go to bed soon but want to talk to Ryan, Ryan leads to Jay, when they come out here I have people I know that I can now introduce to Jay, are they ever coming here, what about tony? is he straight? was he flirting with me today, is that why he forgot the meat sauce on the hotdog?, out of cigarettes, where are the geeks - i know someone knows how to hook a TV to a PC..s-video cable right?, my desk is disaster, i probably just defaulted on my student loan but really there is no money available for it yet, hopefully after the first of the year, what bill am I not paying so I can afford to buy food this week, tired of being dizzy cuz I'm not eating, i need a me day, need to finish my mom's birthday present, get pictures of those designs and get them up on my site and I thought running a business would get me more time, boy was I wrong, i just need to get organized, get things flowing smoothly..ok i can do this, this is what I'm selling I can do, just need to do it for myself

bubblegum pink

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 07:23:01 GMT

bubblegum pink

drops in the moonlight

shadows on a midnight caress

dancing, playing, dreaming

desires

updating themes

playing with ideas

seeking, searching

sleepy

anger

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 02:45:10 GMT

anger
bubbling up like a storm
overwhelming tears
dripping down like rain
glistening upon the heart
as love disappears
breaking waves
learning who he said he was
wasn't who he was
lying
anger sprouting from the soul within
anger threatening to erupt into a whirlwind of emotions
breaking apart the foundation
of the soul
starting again
why me?
temptation to curl up and just disappear
into a hole of self-pity
breaking down the wall
anger
lashing out at everyone and everything
spilling over the tears
of the heart

Hi

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 07:45:59 GMT

My name is bored. What is your name?

I'm hungry, ambition and drived to succeed and you want to know why?

because my name is bored, beyond bored

i'm tired of looking for a job everyday on the internet

and when i do get a call

i usually have no idea what I applied for

because I've applied for some many damn jobs

how many ways can i come up creatively to tell you why you should hire me

instead of the other millions of people that are also looking for a job

why me? why not them? because I'm hungry, ambition and bored?

and i'm going mad, mad I tell you, mad as a marble

i need to get out, get away from the computer, get out of the house

before i lose my mind, its gone, just plain gone,

the winky tinky light is losing it

where did the winky tinky spinky dinky light go?

sailing up, up, up and away

hi, my name is bored, what is your name?

free writing: hanging out with schnarfelpopper and wafflepants

Tue, 18 May 2004 07:38:19 GMT

Schnarfelpopper and wafflepants decided to take a walk, where they were going no one knows. Who they were....we haven't figured that out yet, but something tells me we will towards the end.

As they walk along their boardwalk, they discuss having a PHP page that loads and displays that individuals blog from a MySQL database, they disuss the the various way to accomplish this idea and they discuss the programmer who is programming them down the path of enlightenment. Does he know what he is doing? Should they probe his brain to help him figure out the simplest way to accomplish his task or should they wait patiently for him to program them into the database. Does he understand the complexities of the program, will he be able to fit wafflepants into the code correctly so the style is set for each page. Will Schnarfelpopper be correctly embedded into the journal so he can do his bidding upon the page and what about flash fried weasel, will he come into being? Do they really want a flash fried weasel hanging out with them on each page, will he become a nuisance to the program? As they continue to talk amongst themselves, they realized they must wait and see how he, the programmer, does with the information he has before they take over the code and make it happen. As you see Schnarfelpopper is just a code that makes popping noises when he's unhappy, wafflepants is his side-kick that makes sure the cascading waterfalls are wide enough and stylish enough to fit and flash fried weasel is the weird little character tracking superfluous feedback.

And as the ending of all weird little stories must end..we must wait and see if schnarfelpopper, wafflepants and flash fried weasel ever make it into being as their journey has just began.

thanks jesse for the idea. This might actually be a little more than a free writing exercise, I had to figure out an ending but in the idea of free writing, it took a life of its own.

free writing..word for the day: NAME, choose the right NAME

Tue, 18 May 2004 07:03:47 GMT

what's in a name

its just a word

that lets everyone know who you are

its a name of an object that we have so describe to be that word

its a place, a thing, a person, a who, a whatits

but its just a word

what is a word

just letters on a page that spell something

and who came up with this idea of naming things, people and places

where did these letters come from

and why do they spell something?

what's in a name?

and how does one choose the right name

my cats were named because they looked like something to me

wubbie, turtle, mouse, spanky and baby kitty

there were more at one point, Lu, Mommy Kitty, Meme and Smelly Cat

and does a name of something, person or place hold a special meaning for each of us

choose the right name

does the wrong name hurt us in some way?

what does choosing the right name mean?

free writing 4-16-04

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 08:57:56 GMT

love, art, take my hand

guide me

pennies are hard to find

lucky

silly rabbit

what do you do with all those pennies

pennies from heaven

silly one

take the love and turn it into art

make the one thing that no one sees in a penny

and start from there

free expression from oneself turns to beauty in the eye of the beholder

take a step back and look upon the world

as a magical place

a place of wonder, look at the world through a child's eye

behold the beauty of the lake, the shore, the wind, the mist, the colors of the sky

be still, look around and see

free writing: see how the butter flies

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 08:37:36 GMT

see how the butter flies

whimiscal images float in my mind

butter doesn't fly but that what came to mind

and i laughed

seeing the world in mysterious shapes and shimmers

growing plants in the mind

the earth is a mysterious creature

she shows only the beauty that can be seen by the wandering eye

the peace of the mind will show you the mysterious of her nature

shimmering energy can be seen

its the magic within us all

dreamscapes are part of the present, future and past

we live only to breath

the air of the moment

the magic floating through our mind's eye

as the beauty of the heavens above

search for the wanderer, the seerer of the energy

where do you find this within you

is it there all the time?

shimmering, floating, energy

while butter flies

and i laughed

become the other: 2-19-04

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 08:05:59 GMT

free writing..i've had this tool kit for writers called the observation deck where you pull a card and you write on that idea for 20 minutes.. although tonight might be a five minute free write..i'm exhausted..so each free writing entry will have a title that cooresponds to the card i pulled at that time..wow, i finally get to use the observation deck..i've had it for 3 years..

become the other

the sensual being

the touch of one another

the space of intensity

fuzzy logic

where are we

in this world

time to give, time to nuture the space of the wild woman

she is the giver of all

the peace and the love of the universe

sensual nature

of lovers in a world

together with one, we are all one

sexy beings living in a space and time that is not real

time is imaginary

breathing of the dragon

the hot fiery breath of the atmosphere

the magic in the molecules

the shimmery energy in every being

the way the light plays on the water

the moonbeams pentrating our souls

our very being, uplifting our minds

into a time of our own

walking through the forest

of light we see the imagination

of a child

the mysteries of the deep waters

the blue of the ocean

the love of friends

our lovers, our guides into the wild open space of our ancestors

dancing, singing, being, becoming the other

wow that was cool..i haven't done that in so long..just letting the words flow from me in a single stream of conscious..thanks lisa

free writing web ring

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 05:37:42 GMT

distant, early morning has this free writing web ring..sound great, somedays I just need to get it all out of me and have no actual thought going..so I thought I'd join..give me a few to get it setup and then I report back details here (gotta go do the laundry, its pouring and I want to wear pants tomorrow)

wait I remember, I'm setting up a new category for this one too...whenever it upstreams

update: 2-18-04....wow, its been so long since I setup a new category, I've gotta remember all the little things like comment macro and trackback macro and updating my blogrolls..and where the space under the calendar is and everything but I'm getting there..soon to be free writing..testing..more testing..more testing..ok the ringsurf isn't working..can't find the server and i'm exhausted..time for bed...try again tomorrow. :)

2-19-04 update..think i got it working..more tonight..gotta get to work