Sleep Wake Cycle
Iím concerned because Iím sleeping so late. This morning I woke up about 10. Of course this will change anyway once M gets back. But Ė I wonder if Iíd be better off with an older sleep pattern like 11-7. If I used to flourish on this, why not now? Is it worth it to have such long evenings and shorter mornings?
I approach the Dream Studio. Iím struck by how beautiful it is Ė vines, flowers, just a dream place. I knock. The door opens at once.
Older Self: Come on in.
C: Are you working?
Older Self: For you, and only you, Iím willing to stop for a minute.
C: Thanks so much! Iím worried because Iím sleeping so late Ė till 10 today and yesterday. When I set the alarm clock or the CD player as an alarm, I have trouble falling asleep. But this morning it seemed as if it would be worth a day or two of feeling really tired, just to get morning time back.
You donít use any kind of alarm, do you?
Older Self: No, because if I want to paint at , I do. I donít have regular work hours or a set schedule.
C: I guess Iím scared that without that, I wonít accomplish anything.
Older Self: Doesnít that depend on whether or not you really want to do something? To accomplish something?
C: Well, maybe. Maybe Iím looking for a feeling of virtue without necessarily having to accomplish anything real. Itís easier to go through the motions.
Older Self: Mmm. You donít usually settle for whatís easiest.
C: I didnít used to. Now Iím not so sure. It seems as if Iíve gotten really lazy.
Older Self: Maybe. Maybe not. Personally, I wouldnít worry about when I got up. Iíd just go straight to the studio when I did wake up.
C: Well, you keep telling me that.
Older Self: No reason to say anything different.
C: OK. For now, Iíll just let it go.
Older Self: Why not find your own rhythm? Remember what that young man said about hiking the
C: I keep looking at what other artists are doing, and how theyíre doing it, to see what I should do and how to do it.
Older Self: Thereís no harm in seeing new options you might not consider otherwise. But to take anything like that as a ďshouldĒÖIíd be surprised if youíd go that far.
C: I guess Iím feeling insecure.
Older Self: Well, go feel insecure in the studio, and do some work.