I miss the blogoverse but have been too busy to allow myself to get re-engaged.  Still in the rebuilding stages of the front porch.  We finally have the floor down and primed so we don't have to trek through a mudpit and climb up a stepladder to get in the front door. Spent last week preparing a display to represent our regional cohousing association at a local festival.  Made a banner, and two backboards.  Turned out nicely, if I say so myself.   I also got out nearly 70 letters of invitation to local preschools to participate in the annual preschool education fair that the family resource center organizes.  I'm also still slogging away editing the korean-english dictionary pages for a friend, and am putting in an hour or so a day on campaign work for my friend who is running for city council.  Too many commitments, I know...

Blew off the Dean rally in College Park, MD last night.  Only 15 mins away but it really felt like I should be home hanging out with my guys.  I actually got it together to make dinner [vegetable curry -- too spicy for me and TLG though].  We had a pleasant evening.  Turns out 4000 people came out to hear him.  It's exciting and part of me wants to be more involved.  I keep telling myself there is plenty of time until the primary here -- and even more time until Nov. 04 and I just have to be more balanced in my commitments. 

TLG's preschool teacher came for her home visit today.  TLG was pretty excited to have her come over.  He and I overslept and then ran around for an hour picking up toys, sweeping, dusting, and mopping.  The place was really a pit.  Dustbunnies the size of hamsters.  Luckily he is at the age where he can actually really help.  We got it together before she came over and they had a really nice visit.  I have been having mixed feelings about her, but she was really great with him and he really responded to her.  School starts on Monday.  Mon-Th, 9:30 to 1:00.  I am hoping he really enjoys it.

Despite the fact that the house is reasonably livable, dinner is made, and I am making fairly steady progress on all my myriad lists and obligations I feel blue this evening.  Out of sorts.  Adrift.  The news of the two bombings in Israel really got under my skin today.  I have been extremely critical of the Israeli gov't in recent years but I am starting to have the kind of violent reactionary thoughts about the radical palestinian factions that I condemn in others.  It makes me so angry -- and not just because of the tragedy of the deaths of innocents on both sides.  It makes me so angry because every attacks makes a peaceful solution that much less likely.  Feeling angry and hopeless about that I guess.

I also have to admit I have been less than diligent about taking my meds over the last several months. Plain old garden variety stupidity and self-sabotage.  With the days getting noticably shorter it is like playing russian roulette with my emotional health.  I think I need to get my light box out of the attic and set it up next to my computer. 

When I was at the folk festival on Sunday staffing the cohousing display I saw a family of four each carrying red, white and blue BUSH 2004  helium balloons. [Turns out the local cheap labor conservatives had a booth just a few doors down from ours].  I had such a string visceral reaction of anger upon seeing those balloons.  I just wanted to march up to their tanned and blond selves and shout, "Are you freakin' kidding me!?!?!  I mean, on what planet is THAT a good idea!?!?!"  But they were walking with their little ones and I was too angry to get into it in any kind of sane way.  So instead I just seethed all day watching those balloons.  I knew damn well that a certain percentage of folks getting those balloons didn't have a choice in the matter. When you are walking around with a little kid at a festival or fair and someone is giving away helium balloons -- well, you have limited options. [Your integrity vs a temper tantrum in a crowded asphalt parking lot on a 90-plus degree day...]  Still ....

Random, mundane, probably boring as hell ... that's all I gots to give right now luvies....

later gators...

7:20:44 PM