Monday, 11 April 2005

This rather chololateboxey tuross picture is here because I needed to test the upstreaming facility. There is also a connection with the previous posting. This is just north of the other Blackfellow's Point, and is part of the country fought over by the indigenous people who had lived there for thousands of years and the incoming white settlers. Before white settlement it would have looked much the same, except for the cleared land at the end of the lake which would have been forested down to the water. 5:56:21 PM    comment []

A day recovering from a mild dose of alchohol poisoning, and perhaps some emotional stress as well.  Went shopping by car rather than bicycle, dozed, read - "Looking for Blackfellow's Point" by Michael McKenna, an interesting history of the relationship between indigenous people and settles on the New South Wales South Coast. There is a Blackfellow's Point just south of Tuross, a different place to his, which is near Merimbula some distance to the south. No doubt there are plenty of others around the Australian coastline. He does not deny the reality of bloody conflict, but  takes a more nuanced stance than the Henry Reynolds  line in which the settlers knew what what the right thing to do was and chose the wrong.  Plausibly,  his settlers are confused, troubled, at once in denial and driven to remember. Ella's birthday dinner last night at La Scala restaurant in Canberra.  Food  better than acceptable. All the family there except Zoe who is in the Hague. I wasn't conscious of drinking a lot or of having drunk too much, although I was tired at the end of the evening. It was the first time I had seen the scar left on Ella's face by plastic surgery to remove an enlarged mole which she had a few days ago. She was very distressed by the experience, not expecting the incision to be so large and not impressed by the bedside manner of the surgical team. It did not look bad to me, and everyone who had seen her just after the operation said it looked much better.  It was Debbie's last night in Australia. I had seen her only three times on her four or five week visit.  I was away in NZ for two weeks of it.   She is to move back here in  October. She hasn't found a house, and feels she does not have enough money to get one she likes in athe location she likes. Like Tom and Zoe, she can't see herself living anywhere but in North Canberra.  She has been very depressed, thinking about suicide, even planning it but not until after she returns to Australia. I feel concerned and remorseful. It seems cheap to talk about having "moved on". I have, but I still love her and always will. No pictures at the moment, as I don't have the cord for linking camera to computer and I suspect the uploading utility settings are wrong. 5:44:07 PM    comment []

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