Updated: 6/25/09; 11:18:49 PM.
'if' ...
What you alter in the remembering has yet a reality, known or not. - Cormac McCarthy


Friday, May 12, 2006
> thinking before mother's day

perfect pitch (notes for my mother)

Since you were buried
Your singers are scattered like dust.
- Kuan P'an-pan (8th-9th century)


i write in my brother's house over christmas.
he lives six blocks from the house our mother was born in.
no ghosts     except ones i bring.


my mother sleeps in a room at the top of stairs.
at night the house breathes
hear her breath.


houses on sunnyside old as my mother her mother
her mother's mother.
red brick      steeped in blood.


every time a truck rolls by
the windows of my mother's house shake.
windows of my brother's house shake.


someone down the street burns garbage.
my mother watches her brother from the back step empty
ashes from furnace.


the man next door rakes leaves between patches of snow.
cigarette lingers on lip
smell of smoke.


air in high park so damp my clothes crimp.
my mother's grandmother drapes wet sweaters over radiators.
perfume of wool


at the kitchen table in the dark
i sit quietly thinking of you.


my mother watches her grandmother making soup.
pinch of salt over shoulder
imperceptible span
between fingers

(from circuitry of viens by Sylvia Legris)

- See: Poetry

:: note :: ... every time a train rolls by the temple shakes ... the warning bell tolls and the gates lower ... i listen & wait ... have never been in my brother's house ... grandmother's house no longer stands ... i watch mother looking out her kitchen window at birds nesting in the magnificent mountain ash ... she rubs her fingers willing them back to life ... i'll hold your hand tomorrow&tomorrow&to ... mother ...

© Copyright 2009 if.
Click here to visit the Radio UserLand website.    Click to see the XML version of this web page.   Subscribe to my feed    Click here to send an email to the editor of this weblog.


May 2006
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
  1 2 3 4 5 6
7 8 9 10 11 12 13
14 15 16 17 18 19 20
21 22 23 24 25 26 27
28 29 30 31      
Apr   Jun

Site search Web search

powered by FreeFind


Recent Posts


How this works

Technorati Profile

Clicky Web Analytics