The Green-Eyed Monster
I've always thought of envy and jealousy as being two quite different emotions.
Envy is the gnawing wish to have what someone else has ~ but even more insidiously, to be the other person who has the enviable thing. I envy someone's state more than any particular item they may have.
Jealousy, on the other hand, is clearly about possession. I want to possess you, and if someone else appears to have a prior claim, I am jealous. I am jealous of my own possessions ~ don't touch without asking! If I'm jealous of something you have, you are irrelevant to the equation. It's the THING that I covet.
Envy is about the subject; jealousy, the object.
Curious, then, to find myself experiencing both emotions simultaneously in the same context.
M- has a new guy. I am envious. And I am jealous. It's a two-fer!
I must say, I never cease to amaze myself with the clever techniques of self-torture I manage to invent. Fortunately, I've retained enough of my sense of humor to be able to laugh at my pretzelized psyche.
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