So, I need to write down the conversation C and I had on the car ride home. I feel the need to start my life over, in a few rites. I don't know what I need to do exactly, but I do believe a change of environment would be a positive thing. C lives in Dallas/Ft. Worth. DFW isn't really all that different from Long Beach or Lakewood suburbia, but it definatly is a different place to live. I want to pack up what little I have and go to DFW for 6 months. Try a new life for 6 months. If it doesn't work out, I can come back. If it does work out, I can continue school in Texas and hopefully graduate from a University out there. I would be going to DFW because I know someone there to help me out. Someone to act as a mentor of sorts, and just to be there as my friend. We talked about what could/would/should happen when I come out and what some of my expectations were. I am going to visit, like planned, before I make a decision. This is a big deal for me. I know I haven't done very well here, and I think that something completely new would help me start over and get my ass in gear to do something with myself. I don't know if I'll have any positive support from my parents. They did things that their parents very much didn't like, such as getting married at 18. I would like to be given the chance to do something I couldn't do here in California. I don't think they'll see it that way, but maybe things will chance after I leave. Time will tell, that's for sure.
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I <3 you C!!!
C flew back home today. I called him on the drive home and was just insanly happy to talk to him. I told him about a few things I had been thinking about and he's offered support for everything I want to do. You're such a wonderful person! I'm glad to have him home. More info about our convo as soon as I wake up from my zombie-like state.
1:47:08 AM  #  Speak to Me []