Yesterday I was pissed off and angry, I can't seem to find work, any work, I sit in my house and am completely bored..there is only so much housework to accomplish which I don't like doing anyways and then my mom asking me if I've applied to any jobs..like what else does she think I'm doing. Everyday I get up and look for a job, I apply to at least 20 jobs on craigslist, hot jobs, monster, dice, you name it, I've applied. I've even applied as far away as San Jose which would be a 3 hour commute for me and I've even started looking out of state. I think I must be getting a bad reference from my last company..just a gut feeling..i wish someone could call for me and find out what they are saying about me.
I feel like I have to defend myself to my mom as to why i got laid off. I realized I was laid off from Networld because of my actions but it was a mutual thing at that point..i was tired of working there and I found this great job afterwards but apparently it seems like its my fault for getting laid off..and its not. I would not own someone else bad accounting practices for the auditors. And I was played from day 1 on that job and I feel like an idiot. And I refuse to fix the books for the international controller, its illegal here and I will not be responsible for illegal actions, period!
I'm angry because I shouldn't have to defend myself to my mom. I can't even seem to get temporary work, what the hell is that last company saying about me?
and i'm bored, i can't go out because i don't have even money. I have enough money with unemployment for the next two months to live, pay rent and pay the bills, after that I'm screwed if I don't find a job. and then i guess some people trying to be helping refer me to network organizations - which by the way cost money and school cost money..so i sit here bored out of my mind.
and for anyone wondering where I disappeared too..when i'm angry and depressed, i don't want to deal with anyone
why doesn't anyone want to hire me??????
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