today was hard..i had a hard time getting up today and getting motivated. i cried alot today which i guess was good to get it out of my system.
i was given a taste of my dream job, it encompassed all my skills into one, only to have it ripped away by some man with his own agenda. i was used and then spit back out and not only does it hurt but i wonder why me? what did i do to deserve this? i was lied to in the last month at that company and i hate liers, i don't forgive people who lie to me. So today I took some action, i was given a really nice duffel bag by the gunnebo group (as was everyone else in the company) for making last year great...i returned it today. It was mine to keep but I didn't want it, i don't want anything to do with a company that used me and then lied to me. I don't want anything to do with people who treat other people like they are nothing.
another part of my life today i think is ending, someone I thought was a friend, has completely disappeared when things got too tough to deal with, when it takes too much effort to be there for each other and it hurts because i feel that i was again used and spit back out.
it took me awhile today, but i did get up, get dressed, looked for a job and left the apt..its like i took 2 steps forward six months ago and 3 steps back this month. Next time I'll find how many people have been in my position before me and why there is an opening.
6:55:37 PM 
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