I had one of those weeks, you know those really really really long weeks that never seem to end until your body just says screw it, you've had enough. Its been that way for the last two weeks or so, i just got to a point where I felt drained beyond drained. I lost my center, my balance, my magick and today I just wanted to sleep and sleep, I slept for about 20 hours today, I guess I needed it and I'm going back to sleep in a few minutes. I missed the beauty dish radio show deadline but definetly next time, I have a friend putting one of my poems to music - so maybe I'll share that next time on the beauty dish radio show :) As far as the finish theme for the beauty dish - its in my thoughts, I just need to find that creative balance again and I know with a little time for ME, it will re-appear soon hopefully Sunday, I can finish the idea.
I have this client and she's got the classic control drama of an interrogator, nothing is ever right for her, when I first met her, I really liked her but lately nothing I seen to do is right - although she seems to like my employee which is great because that's where "T" is working. One of her accounts I've been working on, had some corruption in the data file but of course it seemed to be my fault not the data and I can't quite figure out why she questions everything I do and feeling drained and not center, I play right into her drama, feeding her my energy, draining myself even further but now that I recognize what is happening, it won't be happening anymore.
I recognize that I need to find my energy center, my balance, my zen again and my magick, my energy will start to shine again. I need to be me and stop trying to do too much. I need to start exercising again and start the flow of magick back into my life.
so...off to sleep, tomorrow, I'll work at my own pace and start to built my energy back up. Tommorrow night, I'm going to find a soft spot in the middle of my floor and just meditate and reconnect with myself and maybe see de.
11:54:10 PM 
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