many thoughts roaming through my head these days and oh so little time to blog
My time - i don't seem to have my time anymore with my new employee in my office, don't get me wrong, I love having her here and she's great but I need my space too. I get up in the mornings and read blogs and my emails, drink my coffee and have a cigarette in my office area but with her here, I feel that I need to work first thing off the bat and I can't relax and wake up. My other employee told me to go out in the living room and do my morning stuff with my laptop and she's right and its only been 2 weeks with the newest employee - we'll figure out the groove or I will at least soon enough.
Office Supplies - why is everyone so freaked out about asking for office supplies or using them? Both of my employees aren't sure its ok to ask for something they need or use as much as they need to get the job done. For example hanging file folders, I'd rather they use them and not overstuff the files or if you need pens, paper, pencils, ask me. I'll go get them or order them. But I guess there previous bosses were stingy with office supplies, that I just don't understand.
Is he flirting? I don't get it. So guy I'm interested in tells girl on myspace that he's taken. Girl on myspace is me but I'm thinking that he didn't realize it was me, the pictures don't look like me and my name isn't on there and he didn't connect the dots. Besides many comments left on his myspace page have revealed not one of his friends or even his sister knew he had a girlfriend, leading girl to think he doesn't.
Girl at work emails guy and ask him something work related, guy doesn't answer email which requires a yes or no answer. Is guy waiting for girl at work to come show him? Are you following this? Girl at work was wearing a dress yesterday, something unusual and caught guy staring at her several times, guy also looked girl straight in the eye and then walked past girl very closely in hallway (hallway is big enough for 3 people to walk past each other without touching). Is guy flirting?
Work/Business - so I've been a little freaked out/stressed out with my business lately. I need to advertise, I need more work for new employee because I don't want to let her go and I need to re-define my business plan a smidgen. I definetly need billable work for my employees - because if they are just working on office related things, I don't make any $$ which sort of cuts into buying new things for the house, I know let the magick happen, stop stressing and it will come. I know I know that but sometimes its just hard to let go and let it happen. And letting go of my accounting all together, i realized I don't like it, I still need to be in control of the cash flow here and now I completely understand my clients hesitation to let me control it all, its hard to give that control over to someone else - i get it now.
Something needs to change - I'm not relaxed in my house when my employee is here, hmm, very interesting. I guess I feel like I need to be super woman and be available when she's here working and then I sit here in a stupor or fog because I am so tired. And I'm smoking too too much because I'm exhausted. I get up early to work with her and be available, so I'm working 4 hours here and then off to client sites and working another 8-9 hours and I'm so tired when I get home, I don't feel like taking a shower or making dinner or doing anything except sitting on the couch and vegging..something needs to change, something with me needs to change. I think I need to give her the work for the week and sleep my normal hours, get back on my normal night owl schedule and let her know that she can be flexible with her hours and schedule.
Ipod - ok, yes, I do know how to use my ipod and even got songs on it finally. Now I need a docking station because its cool, I can move my music from my computer and take it out to the living room and play my songs on my ipod (yes the light bulb did go off ) :)
Matcha Green Tea Cake with Lavendar and Honey Ice Cream - mmm, coming soon, I bought an ice cream maker Saturday and will start the process Friday..
Dating and Myspace - so I met this guy on myspace and he seemed ok online but really someone should just shoot me because after I called him and talked to him, I was like WTF? He was telling me a story and after about 20 mins I was thinking so what the point? is he going somewhere with this? And then I asked him what he did for work, innocent conversation starter right or so it seems - the answer I got "well besides being disabled and living off state money, i like to make people happy" huh? Is he slow or something? I'm suppose to meet him tonight but I'm not going - one I don't want to anymore and two, i took a sick day to catch up on sleep so I can work and make money. And he said he didn't like computers which seems odd to me, he's knows about myspace and his design is pretty elaborate...moral, wrong guy for me, i'll go back to guy in office who's flirting
Trees - I keep staring at these big trees in my yard and I know I need to do something about them, I need to make an effort and call tree guys for estimates - i know that i do but where is the $$ coming from to deal with the trees? I'm still in a budget flux because of new employee but the trees need some pruning soon, very very soon.
Grass - I have grass, omg, its really there. Its just needed some water. Me and green things..not the best combination, i usually forget about those things which brings me back to I need either a landscaper or some more time and I know I'm going to have to mow the grass soon if it keeps growing and I don't have a lawnmower..hmm, do I hire a landscaper or do I find some time to do it myself???
sooo tired, gotta remember to blog, get this stuff out of my head and then I can start relaxing again..
2:51:09 PM 
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