Saturday, May 01, 2004

Dream interpretation: pouncing on life This is really just a fragment remembered from last night's dream. People keep dying. My friend says she deals with this by POUNCING on life. When I hear this I feel despair. I feel totally unable to pounce on life. Commentary: This does seem like what my dream is telling me I need to do - to be aggressive in seizing hold of my life. Grab hold. Pounce on my studio time and keep it in my grip. How to muster up the energy to pounce? Cats seem able to relax completely from moment to moment. They nap most of the time. Resting seems to be the answer to my despair. Didn't get enough sleep last night. Or the night before. Rest is the obvious answer. Rest. Then pounce. 11:12:38 AM    comment []

Joy of not being normal This morning I woke feeling despair about getting studio time again. "There's always something...." I took a shower, not quite able to wash away the blues. At the end of the shower my eyes were attracted to the drops of water on the white shower curtain. Light was shining through the curtain from the other side, so each drop of water looked gray, with a bright rim around it. They were only about six inches from my face, so I could see them clearly despite my nearsightedness. They were fascinating. I stared. I enjoyed. I played with them by splashing a few drops onto the curtain. The new drops ran quickly down, knocking down every other drop they touched. A thought crossed my mind. "A normal person wouldn't be staring at these drops of water." Then..."How lucky I am then, not to be normal. I'd hate to miss this." Feeling enormously cheered, I left the shower. 9:25:19 AM    comment []