i'm proud of myself for managing to break away from computer madness these last couple of days while actually engaging in it..
i left the end of the week free to do some pleasure programming. things being what they are, your typical 5hr session winds up consuming 25hr real-time. this is usually where i loose it. loose what? my connection to my self. that's what i loose when i remain in my head for too long at a stretch. if i loose it completely i forget that i have a personal life, goals, plans, hopes & dreams, friends, a lover.. i truly forget about all that. i push it away. 'must finish the code', 'just one last thing'.. these are the things i think to keep myself locked out of me.
i wound up doing 3 shifts, 25hrs total, over the last 2 days and stayed reasonably clear in the process because i stretched, walked about and practiced with my sword while keeping my thoughts away from the project i was in. i never used to do that.
i'm thrilled and happy to be able to code - even this little - without feeling that i'm going to loose my life and relationships to it. keeping my thoughts away from the/any/a project while i'm in it.. and letting a break be a break without fear of loosing momentum is new and big for me. lets keep it up; took a lot of development to get here :)