Tuesday, June 03, 2003

I put on some deep skin cleanser stuff tonight. It allegedly deep cleans my pores while I sleep. The tricky part is that I'm supposed to remember to wash it off in the morning. I generally forget. And wonder all day why it feels as if my face is slightly stretched out. The last two days, I've done the one muscle group at a time workout. It's pretty intense. And I can get in and get out in less than a half hour, which makes it even easier to motivate when I know it's not going to take up two hours. It just dawned on me today that I'm actually vulnerable right now, in a real way. Right now, I'm completely terrified. Maybe tomorrow, excited. It feels different, actually letting someone be sweet to me. This, more than anything else, this sweetness, is what is taking me way out of my comfort zone. At the same time, this is exactly what I need to learn to do, learn to like. 11:16:50 PM