I've learned quite a few things about myself through this last date, some days I wish I could rewind and start over and yet I guess I wouldn't have learned these new things about myself
I talk way too much on the first date and if I really like someone its because I'm nervous and now I will learn to shut up and listen.
conventional - I am not and if you're not interested at least have the guts to say you're not instead of ignoring emails and phone calls. I will never follow conventional rules of anything including so-called dating protocols and while it might seem that I'm manic or weird, I'll keep writing emails til I get a response. I question everything and I can't just let something go because I'm always left wondering what if - so if there is no what ifs - tell me straight and then I can let it go.
so in passing, he wasn't interested, good to know. hope his life turns out the way he wants and he finds the right person that wants whatever it is he wants and likes him for who he is and not the image of a guitarist and likes his music. I think he's losing out here but that's just my opinion.
and while I think dating has its points, I'm not forever into being on match so I can just get a date for Friday night, well, one I usually work late on Friday nights but the point is, I'm looking for something more. I am looking for what all my friends have, that relationship that makes me giddy just thinking about him, that relationship that will last.
I'm trying way to hard to find that person, I need to relax and let magick happen.
6:20:56 PM 
Dating
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