Monday, October 11, 2004

Interesting article at FastCompany: http://www.fastcompany.com/magazine/87/balance-1.html At first I read through the development of chapters and thought it seemed silly...and then realized that maybe this is what I do.  Sometimes work is my main focus, sometimes health/exercise, sometimes friends/dating, sometimes finding new hobbies....I don't particularly love that I can't focus well on all of those things at once, but I do know that when I have a strong focus in one of those areas that I seriously excel at it.  And I never drop any of them as a focus completely.  So, that go with the flow, I see which one needs work at the time and try to focus on it?  I guess.  It's interesting.  Comments9:44:17 PM

Oh!  It's Shakespeare weekend at the Renaissance Festival this weekend.  I haven't been this year, so it'll be a fun thing to go to...if anyone's interested, holla'!  Comments7:51:03 PM

I love-love-love to see what people search for to find my blog.  Partly because it's funny, but more that it's interesting to see how exactly people search.  Today my favorite is "but everybody thinks that everybody knows about everybody else"  Funny to know that many of the words in a song and not know the song or search by the singer.  Scooter just called me and said "I'm calling to motivate you to clean house or work out!"  Heh.  I have good and goofy friends that really want to have a 45 second conversation trying to motivate me.  My friends that made me most happy today:  Dallas, Scott, Tisha and Kristen.  I didn't talk to anyone (well...Dallas and I did "chat"), but I had good conversations with each of them that made me laugh out loud.  Laughter tugs my heart-strings.      Comments7:43:35 PM

Success!  I worked about four times as quickly not being in a distracting environment. I accomplished what I needed today!  I may want to look at it again later or in the morning, before submitting, but I feel much better. Now to think about cleaning.  It's been nice to have a day for just Rebecca....even if it's been focused on working stuff.... Comments5:29:45 PM

Grande mocha fraps make me shiver Unexpected kisses make me quiver Slow movements make me nervous Insecurities rise to the surface Biting, resisting the urge to grow And holding back the natural flow 'Cause what's ahead I can't control. Oooohh, silly fears.  Life will be fine withut my control.  I know it.  And yet I'm fighting to be what I've been, to stay where I know. And oddly enough the song playing in the background (not just in my head this time) "helpless, helpless, helpless....helpless, helpless, heeeelllpless, helpless, helpless, helpless, helpless, helpless..." I don't really feel that way right now.  More accepting of moving forward in steps that I know I can't control the inputs for.  I can only try to know who I am and maintain and grow with that.  I know, I know, I think too much.  K & I had a talk on our trip and she was like "yeah, you think about things more than other people."  How, how do people not think as much as I do?  Do they not hear something in their head constantly?  Or are the thinking about things that don't matter?  I'm *not* saying my way is better, I just really don't know how you can "be" without being in constant, rapid-fire thought......good or bad or medium, there's a lot to think about.  Comments3:45:39 PM

My avoidance of completion is one of my top least-favorite-things-about-self traits.  I don't think it started until 22 or something and has gotten progressively worse.  Lots of other things that tie into it.  Maybe a full plate of disorganization....that I somehow embraced (in order to be more easygoing), but it ocasionally causes me angst.  Could I somehow install an on/off switch so that I could be both easygoing, but put together?  Do I really have control over my motivation (oh, so if I'm motivated, completion isn't tough)?  Control is a word that makes me tighten my shoulders and make an "ugh" face. I must complete this work today.  I have to. It's worth $$.  I'm going to go to B&N so I have no internet access or tv to distract myself with.   Comments1:40:13 PM

I'm afraid if I go outside, I won't be able to come back in and finish working.  Here are some things I'd rather be doing right now: 1.  Hiking or cyling or just walking around... 2.  Cleaning (sick, I know) - including sorting mail and putting away some clothes and finishing my laundry. 3.  Dancing. 4.  Talking.  Out-loud.  I've not heard my voice today.  5.  Working on Joey's baby-book. 6.  Writing or painting. 7.  Driving.  Randomly.  Getting lost.  Going over hills.  Singing loudly.  Feeling fall with multiple senses. 8.  Eating lunch.  I'm hungry. 9.  Cuddling. 10.  Not wishing I were doing something else. A few minutes more of work, then real clothes and a break out of the apartment!  yay!  Comments12:16:36 PM

If you're going to wear your reactions all over your face, is honesty the best policy? Of course it is....but it's funny to think about how unintentionally honest I am sometimes...without saying a word.  Comments11:35:19 AM

She twirled her toes around, watching the water take over the sand and rocks one wave at a time.  It was a bit overwhelming that it seemed so…unending and open and enduring.  She wanted to be the ocean.     To be cont. Comments10:16:54 AM

Yay for pajama's! Yay for Costa Rican coffee! Yay for ten hours of sleep! Comments9:22:33 AM

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