[No links in this one, it's just personal stuff. You have been warned.]
I find myself with a new dilemma.
Or perhaps not new, but unaccustomed.
I've been invited to a party tonight, and I'm trying to decide whether I'll go. Here are the circumstances...
In the last year or so, I've made a new friend, M-. She's about ten years younger than I, sharp, lively, social. As time goes on, I am ever more delighted when I manage to make a friend -- real friends are hard to come by, and I think as one gets older it's harder and harder to meet new people and invest the sustained time and energy required to build a friendship. M- and I have playful, substantive conversations and share some interests that I'd let lie dormant.
I also find her attractive ~ which is interesting ~ but in an un-urgent sort of way. I've never had a same-sex relationship and I'm not in a big hurry to look into it, either. Life is plenty complicated as it is ~ and besides, why mess with a good friendship? It's been my experience that lovers come and go, as it were, while friends last a lifetime. (In any case, I suspect that ~ if pressed ~ I would have to admit that I find something attractive in all my close friends. Sexual orientation isn't really the issue.)
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