Two months of ugh.
Ever since I returned from Keystone in August I have just not been up to par and it's beginning to get old. I have barely enough oomph to make it through a basic yoga routine and a dog walk - I just feel so weak (and not out of shape weak). A far cry from how great I was feeling this summer. This malaise thing is definitely getting old.
What is really frustrating is that I have no idea what's going on. It would be a great help if I could just hop down to Salt Lake to meet with my doc. It would be very nice to at least check in on this stuff. However, that's just not in the cards right now. And I really don't feel like seeing a non CFS/Fibro doc here in Anchorage. If I attempt to explain how I feel, I'll just get the "blank stare."
Oh well - what I am contemplating is saying the "hell with it" and go ahead and do stuff anyway. Maybe my malaise is just mental. That's not been the case before in the past - when my body is physically ready I am so totally psyched to do stuff. I usually don't wimp out mentally. But who knows - maybe that's what is going on now. So I think I'll attempt a roller ski this afternoon. After all, it's getting very very close to ski season!
12:15:40 PM 
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