Wednesday, July 23, 2003

Today, I took twenty minutes or so and walked up and down Delmar. Even that, as small seeming as it was, felt so indulgent. I hope I still remember what that feels like, that twenty minutes of unstructured time, when my hours are more free, more my own. So that I can better appreciate the time when the time returns. 3:33:59 PM

If you think of how vengeful the "pagan" gods were, starting futile wars among their human vassals for pure amusement and to settle vain scores, I can't help but wonder if the vengeful old testament god worshipped by so many so called Christians today is not just vestiges of superstition. 3:32:01 PM

I hunted down my wayward smoke detector tonight. I wonder if that was the same calm adreniline flow ancestral hunters felt, listening in the dark. Judging time, except not by a digital watch. I was actually disappointed that it only took one beep for me to locate the pest. I didn't have to triangulate the location, and narrow it down. I happened to be standing in exactly the right place in the basement when the low battery beep went off again to know that the only place it could be was in between upstairs and downstairs. Now, the unit is gutted. Opened up. Until my next trip to Walgreens, to buy yet another 18 pack of 9-volt batteries, 16 of which will die before I need another replacement for one of my smoke alarms. 2:23:15 AM