The trials of dating series ending.....reasons explained here.....

I understand a little more about my experiences and why I needed to post them here, it was more for me and a way for me to remember the good about each one of them and a way for me to express my feelings about my experiences...

I'm still trying to figure out where am at and what I want in a relationship and its getting easier..time to live life in the moment and see what happens..

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The sweetest thing happened tonight while I was working on a friend's computer at his house..this woman knocked on his door and asked if I had a cat..I told her I didn't live there but my friend had a cat. She told me that this tabby striped cat was hit by a car and had crawled into the bushes. She wanted to put him in a box and take him to the vet...

I went out to see if it was my friend's cat and thank god it wasn't. But as I was walking out there to check it out, one other woman was out there trying to figure out how to put this scared cat into the box without getting hurt. I petted it for a second, made sure it's back wasn't broken and scooped it up and put it in the box. Poor little thing, it had gotten its jaw broken and was having trouble breathing..then a man drove up and said he would take it to the vet since we got it into the box.

The woman told me thank you and said I was incredibly brave..I don't think so, I have 5 cats, used to have 8 and I knew that the cat wasn't going to hurt me, it was just scared.

But what amazes me is that 3 complete strangers stopped because they saw the cat get hit and wanted to help. I will probably never see these people again but the kindness of strangers continues to amaze me. I hope the cat is ok because it looked like it probably belonged to someone.

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I'm back from vacation and I am so happy to be back home and in California. I learned alot about myself the past week, de-stressed and basically found me again..found me that lives in the moment, who plays with wild abandonment, who dances like nobodys watching..found my sexy witch spirit.

it was an expensive lesson to learn that I'll never leave california, that I'm happy with my life, I missed my cats and considering they are currently hovering around me..I guess they missed me. I love my work and I missed blogging here. I missed being around people that are friendly and I am very happy with the people in my life.

The trials of dating series, I'm ending..I realized that I was in general just pissed off at the world and completely and utterly stressed out and I feel bad that I've written alot about certain people that I never wanted to hurt or push away.

And even though I hate Boston and didn't particulary like most of the people I can into contact with, I had time for myself to reflect upon my life. I had time to paint my fingernails, to read 4 books, to think, to take walks (Walden Pond is gorgeous) and unwind and de-stress.

I need to remember to take time for myself, schedule those monthly massages, relax and not focus all my energy on work or others. I need to get enough sleep and not pull myself in 20 different directions continously. I need to find time to write professionally and stop hiding behind whatifs and just go for it. I need to stop listening to others when I have problems and trust my inner spirit, my inner witch.

I have complete feeling back in my feet and back and maybe it was the stress after all. I need to talk walks, get out in the fresh air and spend time away from the computer more often during the weekends.

I am so happy that I'm back home. I am so happy I found me again.

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