I thought it was me being stressed out about work, having complete job burnout and no wonder, I have 3 fulltime jobs which for some ungodly reason, my boss thinks I can do in 40 hrs per week or assumes that I can do everything, get no sleep and have no life and I'll be happy. NOT
I'm back from vacation, no longer completely stressed out but today at work, I lost it. Nothing changed, its still the same and its not me. At least I have that perspective now..I guess. And the new operations manager promises things will change but every new operations manager we get - tells me the same thing. And things change for a while but unless the owners go away forever and let us run things...nothing is ever going to change permanently because every new ops manager ends up quitting after a year or so. I don't blame the ops guy and I no longer blame myself...I don't even blame the company. I knew a long time ago that I should leave and I keep rationalizing reasons to stay..it isn't worth it anymore. The is no trust or respect between anyone anymore. Everyone is trying to figure out how to leave, everyone is still stressed out and snapping at everyone else. Its not a healthy atmosphere anymore. And unless you are part of the ingroup with the owners, you will always be to blame for something.
So here I am, after vacation still having to work after hours just to get things done that no one followed through on while I was gone for a week (even though they said they would). I've been offered a possible opportunity doing financial work..I'm calling them tommorrow, setting the appt and moving on with my life. I feel bad about the new ops guy and his goals, he told me today if I leave there was no reason for him to stay..maybe its time we all moved on.....and got a life outside of work.
10:30:47 PM 
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