I've been struggling whether or not to post this the last couple of days but I need to get it out of my head.
Wubbie,my cat died Saturday night. I've been keeping busy trying to keep my mind off the fact that she's gone. I had her for 16 years and she was an old cat and I know that cats don't live much longer than 15-18 years but I'll miss her, she was my lap cat, she was always the one that snuggled with me in bed. She would put herself in bed, snuggle under the covers with her head on the pillow and wait for me at night. She was annoying at times but I loved her dearly, you never know the gravity of love you have for someone until they're gone. And just when I think I've stopped crying, the tears well up again. She died of kidney failure and the vet said to put her to sleep and I don't know if I made the right decision but I wanted her to die at home with everything she knew and by my side. I think it might have been painful for her and that I should have put her to sleep but I didn't want her to die in the hospital, she cried out, took her last breath and past away Saturday night. I'm mad at myself for not paying attention and realizing she was so sick until the last moment, until her last day. I would give anything to go back and realize that she was so sick - from what I read about kitty kidney failure, its fatal but I wish I could have known sooner and made she last days extra special. I don't feel her here anymore, she's gone, I don't feel her spirit here, she's gone onto Summerland, where I hope she gets to see Lu again and play in the fields and is happy as a kitten and not in pain anymore.
Goodbye my sweet child and goodnight. May you find peace in Summerland. I'll miss you Wubbie. Thank you for your love and warmth all these years, you were the best christmas present a girl could ask for.
Wubbie (3/1/1991 to 6/16/2007)
You never know the gravity of love you have for a friend until they're gone.
2:04:07 AM 
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