Thursday, October 30, 2003

I have decided that I never ever want a TV in my house again. That cathode ray tube is a black hole. One more day, and the house is mine again. I mostly can't wait to go to florist row on Saturday to get orchids and roses, after I clean the house thoroughly. Having dirtiness noise and chaos around me for the past three months makes me so relish being alone again, except for a few hours a day hearing Jans click softly on his keyboard keys, programming or playing Shadowbane, or some combination of the above. I've determined that if the business doesn't work, I can make my living helping people start small businesses - everything from the legal to the banking to assembling cheap modular office furniture. All the things no one talks about in the business books too, like dealing with stress and serenity, realizing that starting a business is the only thing that can prepare you for starting a business. Like having kids. And that more than anything, more importantly than anything, know you're going to fail. Not at some things. At most things. And that's what's required for success - the trick is recognizing in those moments that the whole thing is about solving problems, forever solving problems, and sometimes you're right, most times you're partially right, but to get something done, to do, is the most important thing of all. To get you to the next set of problems. To get you to the next level of success. 11:15:58 PM