Adam's Mile High Blog
where we sleep when we should be writing
Sunday, January 26, 2003

If I say something that you don't like I don't care. I am going to say it anyway because in the end even if you don't like it you are going to know me better and that's all that matters. No sense in putting on a show for you guys.

Why do I feel like I have to impress you valued readers. Why are you here anyway? I mean don't get me wrong I like it that you are but why? It's the eternal question.

I hate this. I hate where things are going. Hindsight is a pain in the ass. I look back on the past 5 years and I would change about a billion things. It just seems that things are really trivial. What are we all doing here?

I feel lost. I have no clue what I am doing or where I am going. I hate that. Maybe because I had someone telling me for so long what to do and when to do it that now I don't feel comfortable.

I can't find my niche. I don't know where it is. That's why I feel lost. I hate to sleep because I crawl into a empty bed at night. That's the worst feeling in the world. I keep looking and don't know where my place in this world is. What do I have to offer. It all seemed so real a year ago. I had my shit together and I was on fire. Now nothing. I seek comfort and I can't find it. I run away from things a lot. Especially when they go wrong. I am a smart guy and I know when things work and when they don't. Maybe it will come to me. I need some sleep.

Shook me all night long,
Yeah you, shook me all night long,
Knocked me out, I said you
Shook me all night long,
Had me shaking and you,
Shook me all night long,
Had me shaking,
Well you shook me...

-ACDC Back in Black 1988

3:31:42 AM    thoughts  []

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