Sunday, August 01, 2004

It dawned on me last night that transformative imagery, deep meditation, prayer, the types of reprogramming of self-sphere and world sphere actually do have the potential to change the fabric of the universe. In some of the deeper level reprogramming I've done for me, sometimes in just giving a metaphor for dialogue with those elements of self, I've realized that what I'm doing is actually altering the fabric of being, the brain connections themselves. Taken to a deeper level, I think it may be possible to alter the very strands of DNA that make up me, and deeper than that, try to heal the strands that make up us all. This very thought process makes me wonder if it's possible that some of what happens with ketosis for me, or runner's high, and that feeding of the body with a higher octane fuel, is that the alteration of the body comes partly from the physical transformation, partly from the spiritual high - that giving the body good energy, good fuel, allows the body to actually reform itself into a healthier, happier physical entity. I also realized how treating my body, throught the years, as if it needs to perform for me, like a slave, pushing my shoulders especially past their limits, instead of listening to their biofeedback, is not conducive to high performance. That instead, and this may be a first step for me, treating my body as if we are a pack of dogs together hunting and eating gives a greater voice to that more primal force within, so that we perform together. I don't yet have a clear metaphor for what it means to perform completely as one unit. But I trust my subconcious me is working on it. 12:19:09 PM