Wednesday, May 07, 2003

My waiter anxiety dreams are getting progressively harder. Ridiculously so. So they don't seem like nightmare's anymore; more like progressively harder levels in some video game. During this afternoon's nap, I dreamt I worked at some lakeside resort, with buildings placed in a semicircle around the lake. I had huge tables, not only in different sections, but different buildings, and only one Positouch to use for all the different buildings and different tables. I actually stayed asleep to solve the problem, and, with the exception of one table, upset that it took me 15 minutes to process their bill but understanding once I explained that I didn't know they were ready to pay, everyone was happy. Everyone tipped well. Which is a great way to end an anxiety nightmare, actually passing that final you forgot you had, finding a pair of pants to wear, getting to the church on time, after all. Which is what so much of my life is, when I stop worrying and let myself trust myself, and the good intentions of others. 1:59:02 AM