It seems like it was a long weekend. Pretty good overall though; just up and down mood-ness.
Friday I went with a friend to dinner and to see Hitch. It was good, but I was sleeeeeepy, so I had a hard time staying awake. Saturday I made it to the Farmer's Market, hung with the boys a bit and then spent some much-needed time alone. It allowed me lots of primping time for the party too; so I actually went looking like a girl. Oh, so a friend had a party Saturday night..."flannel and lace." It was fun; they have a hot-tub and a pool table, so it's a good party house. There was a bit of awkwardness near the end, but it was good overall. Yesterday, I attended http://www.pasquinadefilms.com/film@11 and was quite amused by the movie, "The Eyes of Tammy Faye." Afterwards, I spent some time at B&N and then had some time on my own again for the evening. I practiced guitar more (four days straight! woohoo!) and did some painting. I did one that I think I'm going to bring into work, but I was still unsure if it was dry this morning.
I made it to "Body Step" again. Yay! Step is my favorite class, 'cause it's the easiest for me to work hard and zone out.
I did think/talk a lot this weekend about my latest thing of moods being kinda crazy. I think a big part of it is that I need some stability and the job-changing has that all mixed up...so it's made me less trusting of my instincts, more questioning of myself (and everyone else), less set in a routine. So, I've been a bit clinging to want to set a new routine and to spend time with my friends. Another area that I discussed with a couple of folks is that it seems like in the last year, my life has gotten progressively better (so i'm 25 or so pounds lighter than i was a year ago, better career, more money, dating has been more successful, no arch-enemy kind of people in my life...), but that I find my esteem not reflecting that; if anything, it's been down. It's so weird. I'm trying to analzye the source and have some ideas, but changing is hard.
Anywho, that's where I am this Monday morning...
8:34:02 AM 
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