Saturday, May 15, 2004

It just dawned on me that part of monotheism requires naming all gods, all the differentiated personalities that comprise our whole, and knowing them to be one wholly holy unified self, hence the idea of Buddha ruling over all gods and demons, Jesus casting out demons and even casually chatting with Satan. It also dawned on me a few days ago that part of the mythology and reality of transcendent beings among us is the idea that they rejected material privige for spiritual growth. Bill asked me earlier this week how I was sleeping. I told him better than ever. And it dawned on me that that's not entirely true, that sometimes, as I'm in a more deeply meditative state, and my brain makes my face twitch from the connections being drawn, I need what feels like extra rest. I also wonder if his question was not some koan, that true brujo have so learned to channel the white energy the subconcious connects to in sleep that they draw constant spiritual sustenance. Resting the parts of the body so that they need no unconcious slumber would be easy, once you had the white light part down. Tonight I feel as if I've come home from a hard time in a foreign land, country or otherwise, lonely for my own, coming back into Fridays. I woke up this morning looking forward to the day, rather than dreading it's length, as I do most Fridays, knowing that as soon as I place my feet on the floor, I will be on them almost constantly for the next 16 to 18 hours, with little rest before another 8 hour marathon begins. And then another the next day. While all others in the world are at rest, at play, I toil so that they may so do. 12:04:46 AM