Thursday, October 21, 2004

Oh.  I just figured out what it is I'm off about....I miss my family. Lots of family talk with Michele...hung out with twin-sisters...one of the girls is planning a wedding, so talked about her mom and sis a lot.  And there's no going home for Thanksgiving. And my best friend from elementary school is having a freaking hard week and I'd like to be able to hold her hand through these two funerals she's had to endure. Yeah.  I could totally dig lunch over at my grandma's house with all those hugs that my family gives.  And to get the "Rebecca Ann!"'s that I seem to get them to exclaim with my silly stories.  And to ride anywhere with my  mom and sing in the car.  Or talk with my bro.  Or have my favorite aunt say, "there's my Becker, I've really missed you little girl."  To have my growing cousins come sit in my lap and tell me about school and their dramas.  To just be there and be taken care of in an easy way. You know...to be embraced in that love that started before I was born and will continue after my time here. Yeah...I could totally go for that right about now.  It's only 16 hours away. Comments11:07:13 PM

Weird mood. Lots of conversation today. I spent a lot of time with my boss.  We were good friends before, but haven't talked as much lately.  We had some good conversations about boys and life and making big decisions on a whim and moving and blah, blah.  We've both done major relocations to the area so we share this common "Oh, it's okay here...but, yeah, I'm not tied here" feeling.  We're very alike, but also very different.  Hhmm, yeah, it was good overall. Went straight from there to Kristen's.  I helped her get ready for a "Chili for Children" fundraiser.  Basically she made a bunch of chili and Jaycees or whoever could come over and eat for $10.  The money goes to the "Junior Chamber Family Aids Network"...which is kind of like Ronald McDonald House, but for AIDS.  I was glad I went early so we had some good chatting time while I helped her clean and cook.  She's such a balance to my chaotic thoughts sometimes.....and I'm also very laid-back in areas where she would normally freak-out a bit. Mostly I don't need any filters with her.  It's good.  Anywho, then a bunch of girls came and we had a great time talking over wine.  Then a couple of boys came.  We had good, laughy, but informative, conversations.  Mostly it was a light evening all around.  I think we're going to start a knitting group.  I need some new scarves.  I love them. Tomorrow's Friday.  It seems out of place. I feel a little disoriented, but it could just be too much time in the car, woke up too early and such.  I should read and sleep.  I'm thinking I might need a light book to be reading on days like this when the Rushdie I'm reading just feels too heavy and attention-needing. Comments10:22:45 PM

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