Sunday, October 31, 2004

I went to see two movies this weekend.... Saw:  Good plot, could've been better performed.  There were some really nice shots though.  Ray:  Jamie Fox did a great job.  It was an interesting story.  Heh.  I should be a "5-second movie reviews" critic.  I also went to two parties.  Both were pretty low-key. Today Scott & I took the dogs to Fell's Point and walked around.  It was a surprisingly warm day and the leaves looked awesome flying around. Okay, to bed... Comments10:34:31 PM

"It is the loving, not the loved, woman who feels loveable." - Jessamyn West Oh, yeah, I agree with that.  Comments5:02:10 PM

A few interesting conversations this weekend (um, okay, they are about me) that have helped me feel more in my moment.... 1) It seems like some people live inside themselves and some people live outside themselves. I  tend to lean towards outside. So, it's easy for there to be things going on in my life that I'm actually very removed from...at least the part of me that I feel is actualy "me."  It's almost like I know they exist, but they aren't, in any way, actually touching who I am or how I feel about life.  It's odd because these can be important things and they can change (so, work is sometimes a part of me and sometimes not).  It's NOT in regards to how pleasant or unpleasant things are on which category they fall into.  Hhmm...yeah, it's interesting for me to realize and give some thought to.  Next I'll think about how much control I have over this. 2) I'm very adjusted to being a single-person who is very people-involved...and that's going to be hard to change.  I remember reading an article about how in Japan traditionally folks haven't expected their spouse to be their best friend...they have friends/networks that provide the relationshiops Americans expect from a s.o.  Well, I have those networks fulfilled.  I don't spend much time at all alone, but I also don't spend a lot of time with just one person or rely on other people for much more than listening.   At the same time, my closest friends are a part of my daily life, on various levels, and it's hard to open that up and change since I've been single for a while.  Since I am so people-intensive, I'm surprised to discover this.  I always thought shifting to be a girlfriend would be easy for me.  Hhmm..life is a merry-go-round.  We'll see how well I stay on. Comments4:57:37 PM

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