Cancer is truly a life-changing experience. It's funny, sometimes I encounter people who I can tell perceive me to be the same person I was 2 years ago, and that can't be farther from the truth. But they're viewing me from a completely mundane point of view, whereas my cancer has put my head, my perceptions in a totally different place which I can't explain. The pettiness that rules many people's lives I just don't have. I don't have the time to allow that into my life, because who I am at this very moment is the most important thing to me, and I don't want to be a person with emotional baggage or pettiness.
Sometimes I think, "FUCKING CANCER SUUUUCCCCKKKKSSSS!!!! CANCER SUCKS!!!CANCER SUCKS!!!!". I don't think it consciously, but I feel it. Luckily most of the time I see it more as a way of life, a probe in my side telling me to remember the preciousness of life.
The one thing that's very evident to me is that cancer is a very lonely journey.
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