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Wednesday, November 20, 2002 |
I've been struggling to take off the 3 pounds that I've gained on top of
the 25 that I gained through my cancer treatments last year. I quit
swimming to favor jogging and the elliptical trainer, which is in our
basement. It's just been driving me nuts, watching myself gaining and
gaining for the past two years. Last year I forgave myself, but this
year it just makes me feel really badly -- physically I feel sluggish
and awkward, and mentally I feel like there's a dark cloud hanging over
me.
Finally, finally finally, this morning I got on the scale, and I was
back down to the weight I was at the end of my treatments.
Surprisingly, I haven't been doing any serious dieting. I've been
trying. Most of my meals are pretty healthy (the Zone diet. It's
totally cool if you can keep it up), but not all of them. I'm still
trying to re-train myself to be low-key about my eating. When I lost my
taste buds last year with the taxotere, it really made me so crave the
taste of food. I've not quite gotten over the thrill of eating and
really enjoying it.
I'm very happy that I lost those 3 pounds. Seeing myself make progress
will inspire me to keep trying.
2:37:48 PM
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I spent the morning cleaning out my e-mail boxes. I have an e-mail from
John with the title "Happy Second-to-the-last Day Of Treatment", and
then another one on January 2nd 2001 with the title "Happy Last Day Of
Treatment!" I discovered I didn't have the heart to delete John's
e-mails or my LiveJournal comment e-mails. It's funny, my year of
cancer treatments was not great. On the other hand, I managed to
develop such fond memories of my online LiveJournal support group --
people who were and still are amazing, fantastic, and totally wonderful.
2:22:36 PM
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