Nightmare
You know when you have one of those horrible dreams that you just can't shake, and that you wished you'd never had? I had one of those last night. In the dream, Iris had done something so terribly wrong that she was being put to death for it. She was lying on the ground covered up to her chin in a blanket, with people I work with standing around her in a tight circle. One of the senior managers had a hand gun and it was his job to shoot her.
I realized there was nothing that could be done...that she did indeed deserve this punishment, no matter how difficult it was going to be. I just kept standing there telling her that I loved her. She looked up at me calmly and said, "I know I've done wrong. When you and I walk to the park, the woman who lives in the house on the corner pulls her curtains, because she doesn't want her son to see me for fear I will be a bad influence on him."
The man with the gun would point it at Iris, but would then move the gun away. Finally I couldn't stand it any more and I screamed at him to stop torturing her and just pull the trigger. I woke up before he actually did so.
I was very rattled when I woke up, and tried to take my mind off of it by making some Christmas cookies. But I just can't shake it. I feel guilty for even dreaming such a thing.
7:37:18 AM 
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