Saturday, September 18, 2004

Had a fun trip to Hampdenfest today.  It's always been one of my favorite Baltimore neighborhoods and it was made even better by fun booths, music and people milling about.  Also saw a really incredible hour of a fire performance from the Baltimore Calefaction Society. Quite nice.  How can I safely try it?  I felt Kathleen's burnt hair afterwards...but it sure looks awesome!  Got some work done (not as much as needed, but a decent amount for a Saturday) and helped with shooting a scene for CAmm Slamm!  I'm looking forward to seeing what the people of Baltimore throw together this year for the 48-hour challenge.  The prop is...interesting.   Off to read so I can get up bright & early for some volunteering....who plans volunteering for 8 AM on a Sunday?!  Comments11:06:55 PM

I love this wind... Comments12:03:35 PM

Today's the birthday of Landon “Dallas” Shelby.  Happy birthday, handsome.   Dallas and I met when I came to New Orleans for Mardi Gras shortly after I turned 21.  Before I headed down he sent me an e-mail that said something like “I hear you’re going to come sleep on the floor at my house this weekend.  Cool.  You want to help me work on the Pasquinade?”  And the rest is history.  Lots of floor-sleeping later, I still think he’s a most amazing guy.  Here’s some random things I like about him: -He is amazingly talented.  Writing, design, and now movies...he’s good.  -He has his own action-figure.  No joke. -When I ask advice, he always tells me to follow my gut.  Everyone else in the world wants to tell you what they’d do, but he always instructs me that being true-to-self is going to be the easiest “no-regret” route.  -He surprises me.  -He has good hair.  And dogs. -He once told me "Your sickness is rivaled only by your perkiness." -He’s the most consistently inconsistent person I’ve ever met.  -Sometimes he calls me at 7 AM on Saturday mornings and is always so cheery that it makes my weekend start off quite-happy.  -He's really good at finding things at yard-sales and goodwill. -He gives good hugs. -He likes to have play-dates or “fun days” and it’s always a good time.   And now he’s 31….and preparing for a most phenomenal year.  Comments11:12:29 AM

I had this quote come through this week: "I like coincidences. They make me wonder about destiny, and whether free will is an illusion or just a matter of perspective. They let me speculate on the idea of some master plan that, from time to time, we're allowed to see out of the corner of our eye."   Later that same day I had a conversation with a friend about “life” and how it happens and how we deal with it and….such.   What was hard for me to grasp from the conversation was this idea he sets a goal…doesn’t plan “steps” to make it happen…but it pretty much always works out.  I do totally believe him, but it’s hard for me to really grasp.  This morning I realized why.  Control.   I really like the idea of thinking that we’re in control of where we are, who we are and where we’re going.  Of course I know that there’s a bazillion outside influences into our life that we can’t control, so maybe I’m just pretending.  For me, however, planning gives me a sense of control over those things.    Sense.  Interesting idea all on it’s own. I do have fleeing moments where I like the idea of something else being in control.  Mostly, however, those are moments that I don’t want to be held-responsible.  Lame!  If it’s not that I don’t want to be held responsible it’s that I want to feel like someone else is caring for me and really I don’t have to feel like I have to take care of it all.   Anyway, I feel better knowing what it was that bothered me about the concept.  I’m not sure I’m changing this part of who I am anytime soon, but at least I can know that it’s there and watch it’s influences. Comments10:53:00 AM

I didn’t wirte a lot about what’s been happening in the past week, so here’s my catch-up of highlights: My kickball team won in 23 minutes. I think it may be a record. It was a fun game. I played second base and got 1 or 2 outs at the base. My kicks were good, though I didn’t score a point. I like the idea of adults getting together and playing this silly game…it assures me that I’m not the only kid still around that wants to say “want to go put on our play-clothes and have fun today.” A friend was in town from New Orleans and he brought together lots of folks that I love but don’t see in the same room often. I don’t really want to say more about that here ‘cause that’s not my story to tell. My side-note is that the guy has a good spirit. I don’t always agree with him, but I never feel that he has ill intent. Oh, and when I met him (um...4-5 years ago) I declared "this is the guy I'm going to marry " 'cause he sang loudly to me in a restaurant. I don't think that anymore, but it makes me laugh when I see him now to remember that time. I didn’t sleep enough a single day and I think it showed in most of my interactions. Being continuously sleepy changes my mood and opinions. Hhmm, and my work ethic. I’m going to spend this Saturday morning going through and trying to clean up a lot of it. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to accomplish for myself on my trip next week (9/25) and here are some things I’ve thought of: o I need to write my dad (I haven’t talked to him in four years – he wrote to me at Christmas and left me a few voicemails around that time). We'll see if I mail him what I write, but I've got at least 22 years of things I've needed to say stored up. o Determine my career/life path for the next few years to create some forward motion. In a lot of ways I feel like I’ve been coasting for the past 2-3 years without thinking about what I actually want to do with my life and how I’d like to get there. In some ways I took time off to focus on establishing a “community” in B-more in my home-away-from-home place so that I would have the comfort I needed. Um, and funny now that the right answer for my life might be to not be here. Maybe not. We’ll see. I need to give it some serious thought is all that I mostly know now. o Journal about some personal things that have been going on and I’ve been mostly ignoring. “Personal” – heh. I guess by that I mostly mean thinking about where I am as a person and where I’d like to be. o Last, but not least, a bit of spiritual thought. It’s funny to have been such a religious person at different points in my life (5, 8, 12, 14, 18) and then to have let it go when I determined I couldn’t agree with the religion. I feel like I need to decide what I even think. It’s always easier to decide what I don’t think… Those are some hefty goals. I think I better stop there. Comments10:40:01 AM

Tonight ended up being my favorite concert of the summer.  Yay!  I got off work early enough to pick up my friend and make it under the pavilion before the rain started.  The opening band (I need to look up their name) was super-cool.  They had the drummer set up so that his side was to the crowd and he was quite a good entertainer.  Actually, every person in the band was interesting to watch.  G. Love was, as ever, very fun...you gotta love watching that guy's legs!  They're like their own show.  And he was good for getting the crowd up and dancing a bit. Jack Johnson was completely amazing.  I decided he is my biggest celeb-crush now.  I think I'd hold to that even if I were blind.  Really....his voice is AWESOME!  I've enjoyed my CD's for a while, but he put on a nice show.  And, at the end, when he came out alone...just him and the guitar...it was true-love.  ;) The three bands did lots of good combos too of coming out during each others sets and playing together.  It was a great show.  I got soaking wet afterwards, but it was well worth it.  Comments1:05:47 AM

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