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Monday, February 10, 2003 |
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Punch and Pie. I have been told that there is Punch and Pie at Gretchen's blog. 11:15:54 PM comment [] 
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Existential Discontent This afternoon turned quickly into a rush to get everything finished before I had to leave. Walked up Stafford to home tonight, I ended up inside my head, which is usually a Bad Thing™. Somehow, I think I've realized that the idealist inside me isn't well thought out, nor particularly intelligent. The inner slacker I have just pisses me off, but usually that's about when he takes control and instead of doing anything about it, I slack instead. I guess a lot of it is fear factor. I don't like risk very much. I don't like putting myself far out there, my neck on the line. I panic. I hate to admit it but I panic. And I walk away. It's honestly a miracle I survive out here at all. I suppose we all have good days and bad. I guess I struggle right now because I've been at a crossroad for three years now, a holding pattern, keeping me flying around what I want to do next. God knows what that is. I could go to grad school for music and try to create a career out of a middling voice. I could go back to school in politics and try to create a career out of a middling mind. I could go on toward computers. But that requires dealing with people who don't get it, and I don't seem to have the patience to make that work where I am now.
Pardon me, while i deal with the overwhelming load of personal existential discontent. My life, should be awesome. Right now, it is most definitely not. |
Monday afternoon time
I took this on Sunday afternoon, on my dining room table. Thank God for Fresh Fields' flower section.
Pictures from Ben's Birthday Party are up. Enjoy! |
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